The Evolution of a Dream

When I was about 10 years old, my parent bought be a present for Christmas.

It was a three dimensional jigsaw puzzle that, when complete, stood over one meter tall in the figure of New York City's Empire State building.

Partly a sense of personal satisfaction, and partly overwhelmed by this architectural marvel... I became fascinated with the thought of one day being able to, one day, stand atop this 102 story landmark.

As my fascination with this Art Deco sky scraper made me want to know all the more about the might city in which it stood. One of the most advanced metropolis' that this world has ever seen.

In my curious nature, from that day forth, I was infatuated with this city. The tall sky-scarapers, the classy people in their fancy cafes and funky bars, the sea of yellow cabs filling the streets, the noises from a city that was full of life, every hour of the day.

I told my family and all of my friends: "One of my life's biggest ambitions is to visit New York City."

As time went on, I kept finding reason why I could not travel overseas... be it money, time, important events with family and friends which kept me grounded in Australia... so... it started to look like it was never going to happen.

Last week, my best friend approached me with a proposal. "You + me + about 6 of our firends. New York City. December 2010 / January 2011."

There it was. That feeling that I used to get when I was a kid. Came over me like a rush of cold air. I got goose bumps. For so long things have been getting in the way of letting me go to NYC... and now... not only a chance to go... but a chance to go with a group of people I love so much. From a humble Christmas present, I worked towards Christmas in New York :)

This was it. This is why fate stopped me from going for so long. It wasn't my time, one, five or even ten years ago. Now is my time :)

Tickets are booked.

Brisbane --> Sydney --> San Francisco. Road tripping around the north coast of California. A week later...

San Francisco --> New York City for Christmas and New year

followed by road-trip exploration of the East Coast, and a probably trip to Montreal/Toronto.

Will anyone else be in N. America at this time of year?

Yay! :)

Approaching Oblivion

Year 23.

Full of everything that you would expect from a fruitful year.

Learning

Forgetting

Good Experinces

Bad Experiences

Old Love

New Love

Dead Love

Joy

Sadness

Laughs

Tears

I don't even know what I want to say, here.

Lets see what happens, tomorrow. 24.

Good night x

There, but for the grace of God...

You think you are invincible.

You think that everything that you do... your hard work, meticulous planning, your good will... will make everything turn out so that it works in your favour...

But when you stand there, at the foot of the bed, and peer over a man of your age who is reduced to a vegetative state... you can't help but cry.

Like it wasn't bad enough that life gave him a congenital, chronic and terminal disease which will see him live half as long as you or I... Life also had to throw in a terminal bleed in his brain, while he was doing something that he loved, which means he will probably never see his long-term girlfriend again, or finish his university degree....

Why the hell is it not me lying there, a symbiotic creature with those... machines, which are keeping me alive? Why am I being spared?

So where does this leave me? Do I not even try, knowing that at any second it could all go to waste?

I don't know, maybe I'll just keep going and hope for the best.

"There, but for the grace of God, go I"

The Child That Never Left Me

Item 5:

I love fantasy because there is too much that the real world doesn't let you do.

The Child That Never Left Me

Item 4:

I love to go grocery shopping with my mama, and make her push me down the aisles while I hang off the front of the shopping cart.

The Child That Never Left Me

Item 3:

I proudly wear temporary tattoos from candy wrappers and still feel so bad-ass.

The Child That Never Left Me

Item 2:

I love to walk into vintage book stores, because I secretly hope that I'll stumble across an old book that was lost in time, which holds the map to a treasure.